So I did so well all of January because I had something to focus on... my holiday. Apparently, I only work to be thin when i have a close deadline.
So, I'm trying to think of things in my life to focus on to get thin. At the moment I'm going out loads, drinking loads and eating fucking loads - I don't remember the last time I cooked, I dont think I have this year - I am just constantly eating out, getting takeout or eating at friends. AND IT NEEDS TO STOP.
Today I weighed 150.
It's making me feel like shit.
I'm going traveling for 6 weeks over summer, leaving mid-July. I have to be 130 maximum by then. I'm going to be living in a bikini.