So I'm on my period. I know a few of you mentioned that that would cause me to put on weight... any one get any ideas of estimates etc? I'm thinking this may have been the reason for my stall throughout the week as well.
I was 150 this morning. I know i shouldn't be weighing myself everyday but i literally can't help it. It's all I think about. I still can't see any results - still feeling/looking like my normal fat self. 300 calories today, had leek and potato soup (205 calories) and bought some marmite rice cakes (94 calories) - marmite rice cakes are RANK by the way. I don't even know why I ate them... I've got an annoying habit of eating what I buy because I hate to waste money (that I dont have) on food that I dont eat.
I hope my period doesn't stop me reaching my goal of 149 by Wednesday :(
Monday, 9 January 2012
Sunday, 8 January 2012
Productivity
Dropped a pound. I'm now down to 151 - so i can stop stressing about staying the same! Did a ton of exercise yesterday to get rid of the 9 rice cakes. Tomorrow I'm going to fast to get myself down to my target of 149 by Wednesday morning, today I'm just going to keep under 300 calories I guess, and burn it all off before I go to bed.
Yesterday was productive - Managed to do loads of work until midnight and then still went to the gym afterwards. I know its boring, but thats pretty much how my life needs to be for the next 2 weeks until exams are over. i'm already stressing because everyone started revising like a month ago - and as per usual, i left it last minute and started yesterday. If I can keep up this routine, I'll be very impressed with myself.
This week I've been a lot stronger than I ever thought I could be. Girls, I think we completely underestimate our willpower. A few months ago my binges were at their worst - and I'd stopped purging, I literally have no idea what caused it but I feel sick when I think how much I used to eat. I'm so glad I've overcome that in the last 2 months.
As i previously mentioned in my first blog.. my ex boyfriend. So, he's just got a new girlfriend... and i just don't know how to feel about it. He was the one that somehow made me feel so wanted I didn't have to be bulimic, and the only one that knew about it.... but then he was also the one that when we broke up turned me into an absolute emotional binger. I guess I've always had the control over the relationship - even though he's had complete control over my emotions.. and now I know longer have control, he has it all. I feel like he's won in a way. Weird.
S
Yesterday was productive - Managed to do loads of work until midnight and then still went to the gym afterwards. I know its boring, but thats pretty much how my life needs to be for the next 2 weeks until exams are over. i'm already stressing because everyone started revising like a month ago - and as per usual, i left it last minute and started yesterday. If I can keep up this routine, I'll be very impressed with myself.
This week I've been a lot stronger than I ever thought I could be. Girls, I think we completely underestimate our willpower. A few months ago my binges were at their worst - and I'd stopped purging, I literally have no idea what caused it but I feel sick when I think how much I used to eat. I'm so glad I've overcome that in the last 2 months.
As i previously mentioned in my first blog.. my ex boyfriend. So, he's just got a new girlfriend... and i just don't know how to feel about it. He was the one that somehow made me feel so wanted I didn't have to be bulimic, and the only one that knew about it.... but then he was also the one that when we broke up turned me into an absolute emotional binger. I guess I've always had the control over the relationship - even though he's had complete control over my emotions.. and now I know longer have control, he has it all. I feel like he's won in a way. Weird.
S
Saturday, 7 January 2012
boooooorrrrriiiiiiinnnnnnggggg
152 again today... but no weight loss in a few days is bugging me. Must step up on the exercise.
Today has been okay, had to start revision for my exams so i've been pretty busy. Its now 6pm and I've just had a handful of grapes and a soy latte because I started getting dizzy. It's amazing how much my stomach has shrank. Normally I'd eat a whole bag of grapes as a little snack or something - now i could hardly manage a handful for the whole day.. and now im sitting here bloated and full. I hate this feeling. Seriously considering purging to get rid of it.
Uni exams are coming up... I'm currently in the library (hence the title). I've gotta spend the next 3 weeks revising/doing exams. I can't concentrate though. I just want them to be over so I have more free time.
I bought some rice cakes... thanks to everyone who recommended :D Just got the cheapo diet ones though that taste a bit shit! Will probs go and get some snack-a-jacks tomorrow instead!!
Calorie total for today is about 250... if i don't eat anything else. Net cal should be lower.
How's everyones days been?
S
Update: ended up eating 6 of those fucking rice cakes. I should not let myself near to snack food.
Today has been okay, had to start revision for my exams so i've been pretty busy. Its now 6pm and I've just had a handful of grapes and a soy latte because I started getting dizzy. It's amazing how much my stomach has shrank. Normally I'd eat a whole bag of grapes as a little snack or something - now i could hardly manage a handful for the whole day.. and now im sitting here bloated and full. I hate this feeling. Seriously considering purging to get rid of it.
Uni exams are coming up... I'm currently in the library (hence the title). I've gotta spend the next 3 weeks revising/doing exams. I can't concentrate though. I just want them to be over so I have more free time.
I bought some rice cakes... thanks to everyone who recommended :D Just got the cheapo diet ones though that taste a bit shit! Will probs go and get some snack-a-jacks tomorrow instead!!
Calorie total for today is about 250... if i don't eat anything else. Net cal should be lower.
How's everyones days been?
S
Update: ended up eating 6 of those fucking rice cakes. I should not let myself near to snack food.
Friday, 6 January 2012
Pickles.
Good or Bad? Need some ideas of some negative/low cal stacks I can have when i need energy.
How's everyone doing today?
S
How's everyone doing today?
S
angry.
So. I've put on a pound. I have no idea why. Yesterday, I ate a few grapes, soup for dinner and 2 cups of coffee... 300 calories.
At a major low today. If my body carries on like this then I definitely won't meet my first target.
What am I doing wrong?????
At a major low today. If my body carries on like this then I definitely won't meet my first target.
What am I doing wrong?????
Thursday, 5 January 2012
139.
So - I've decided that if I don't reach at least 139 by the end of January I will be fuming. I've thought about it and although I don't want a goal weight I'm going to aspire towards 125 for now. Now I just need some motivation.
.
152. Today has been a good day.
I didn't mention that I'd gone up to 158 over christmas!! But it's okay, I'm sorting it. I'm going to aim to post everyday, it's such good motivation. At the moment i'm having coffee throughout the day, and then 85 calories of homemade soup for dinner. Hopefully over time I'll be able to ween myself off the soup for weekends or something.
I've decided to make some goals. Would be great to share them with someone.
4th Jan - s/w 158 (11st 4)
11th Jan - 149 (10st 9)
18th Jan - 145 (10st 5)
25th Jan - 140 (10st)
1st Feb - 135 (9st 9) FASTING FROM THE 26TH JAN - 4TH FEB.
Someone tell me... is this being too optimistic? I know I should really aim high to start of with... but i don't want to disappoint myself.
One of my main aims is to stop my bulimic tendencies. I feel so much better restricting than binging and purging.
January is my month.
Think.Thin.
S
I didn't mention that I'd gone up to 158 over christmas!! But it's okay, I'm sorting it. I'm going to aim to post everyday, it's such good motivation. At the moment i'm having coffee throughout the day, and then 85 calories of homemade soup for dinner. Hopefully over time I'll be able to ween myself off the soup for weekends or something.
I've decided to make some goals. Would be great to share them with someone.
4th Jan - s/w 158 (11st 4)
11th Jan - 149 (10st 9)
18th Jan - 145 (10st 5)
25th Jan - 140 (10st)
1st Feb - 135 (9st 9) FASTING FROM THE 26TH JAN - 4TH FEB.
Someone tell me... is this being too optimistic? I know I should really aim high to start of with... but i don't want to disappoint myself.
One of my main aims is to stop my bulimic tendencies. I feel so much better restricting than binging and purging.
January is my month.
Think.Thin.
S
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