Day 3.

So that last 2 days have been pretty slow. I've stuck to the master cleanse, doing a salt water flush in the mornings and drinking the 'lemonade' in the day. I'm at 150.5 today. So i've lost around 3 pounds.

I have 8 more full days, including today to go. It's honestly so tough. In my head I feel like I can do it, and keep doing it until i'm at 140, and then slowly introduce the soup diet until July - so hopefully I can be around 130-35 by then. But deep down i dont think my willpowers going to last this long. These 2 days have been the slowest of my life, not because i'm hungry - because I haven't felt hungry once, but because this diet is making me wake up stupidly early, and go to bed stupidly late, and give me major crashes so I don't have energy until late at night. I haven't worked out in a week, I really need to!

How's everyone doing? Hope you're all well!

Always here

X

The Master Cleanse.

SO.

I started today. Weighing in at 152.6. All I've had today is 4 of the master cleanse drinks (you're supposed to have 6 minimum but I wasn't hungry and was busy!). But I've had a fuck load of water and some peppermint tea aswell. I'm going to bed feeling pretty satisfied, not hungry at all.

I'm really excited to see what happens tomorrow. I really need you guys at the moment, I'm pretty sure the next 9 days are going to be the worst. And I'm really determined to finish it, I'm just not sure if i'll have this same willpower when i'm starving in a few days.


love love x

eyyyup

Heeeey,

So far so good. I'm down to 153, so 3 pounds. Im still at home so couldn't get out of eating dinner, we just had veg and prawn stir fry though. I put it into myfitnesspal and it came up as only 150! As well as that I've had a tall soya latte and an apple. All in all about 400/450 calories for today.

I was messing around with a BMI calculator and found out I need to be around 133-135 lbs to be underweight for my height.. for some reason I thought i'd be less cause i'm really tall.

I go away for the whole summer in 91 days. I was just wondering how much weight loss you guys think I might be able to lose by then? I'm following a strict diet of no more than 500 calories a day, yet will be eating around 350 or less most days. And I have a gym right around the corner so will be going at least 3/4 times a week doing a lot of cardio and ab/arm work.

I really just want to keep motivated and get to at least 133 by July. If i can get down to 126 that would be absolutely amazing!!

Let's just hope this isn't all talk and I can actually keep up with the targets I'm setting!! Anyone out there doing something similar and what to make some similar weight loss targets? Would be great to do this with someone :)


xxxx

My fitness pal

Okay. I've decided to start using myfitnesspal but publishing it on my blog. That way both what I'm eating and the weight I'm losing can be see by others... and hopefully the embarrassment of that will get me back on track.

I haven't decided when I'm doing the master cleanse yet, it all depends on when I go back to uni.

Think thin guys. x

Alone.

So it's been a month since my last post and all I've done is eat and get fat.

Today i feel low. and so alone. It's like you live your life thinking positive and then one night everything just hits you. and you can't bear it. I spend my life ignoring the negatives in situations, ignoring how alone and unloved i feel, blocking people out, i suppose that's kind of a good thing right? Thinking positive? But then I see my weight creeping up and I know exactly why I'm doing it. Because eating makes people feel better, yea...? NO. this is emotion i need to change.

In January I completely blocked out this urge, I had so much self control I was eating 200 calories a day, exercising loads and feeling amazing. I lost like 12lbs in 3 weeks. And i felt like i was in control of my life for the first time in ages. And then I got comfortable, and forgot about everything and now I'm exactly where i started on the 1st January 2012. 152 pounds. and miserable. I can't bear looking in the mirror, I can't bear looking at my tiny friends who eat anything and everything they want and still look incredible. I've fucked up my body so much that eating steadily for a while means I put on weight. My body is so used to eating soup, and one meal a day that when I act 'normally' it decides I should be obese.

So has anyone heard of the Master Cleanse? I've been meaning to do it for ages. 10 days of drinking water mixed with lemon juice and cayenne pepper. Most people lose around 8-12 pounds in the 10 days and are left detached from their old food habits and emotions. I think this is what I need to get myself back in that mindset. If I can manage 10 days then I can end it by going back onto my soup diet. And hopefully sort my life/body out. But I suppose it's easier said that done. Especially in my case. My last blog post was raving about how thin I was going to get and how determined I was... pretty sure that didn't work out.

Personally, I think the fact that I lost weight so easily in January just gave me the mindset that I could eat whatever I wanted until I put it all back on, just because I can lose it again. But its like although I weight the same, i can tell I'm bigger. Everything. My legs, my bum, my face, my arms. EVERYTHING.

So basically I'm going to start the master cleanse as soon as I go back to uni, which should be sometime over the next week. Until then I'll just be having soup to prepare myself.

I hope people actually read this. I need you right now. I feel so alone.

xoxo

Wow I'm shit.

So I did so well all of January because I had something to focus on... my holiday. Apparently, I only work to be thin when i have a close deadline.

So, I'm trying to think of things in my life to focus on to get thin. At the moment I'm going out loads, drinking loads and eating fucking loads - I don't remember the last time I cooked, I dont think I have this year - I am just constantly eating out, getting takeout or eating at friends. AND IT NEEDS TO STOP.

Today I weighed 150.

It's making me feel like shit.

I'm going traveling for 6 weeks over summer, leaving mid-July. I have to be 130 maximum by then. I'm going to be living in a bikini.

Perfection.

Okay. So basically I haven't been on here in absolutely ages so SORRY for being so shit!

I had an amazing holiday. and i mean FUCKING AMAZING. I left on the 5th Feb and weighed down to 144. Since then I've just eaten complete shit because I didn't put on weight on holiday (and I was eating fucking loads... like an unhuman amount).. which gave me the impression that I had turned into one of those fucking amazing robot human beings who eat whatever the fuck they want and never put on weight....

Well. Guess what? I was wrong.

I am now 149. And ready to get back on it. 


I think I should really set some goals, give me something to keep me motivated you know? My first end goal for when I started was to be 139... and then continue from there. So my goal for now is 139 - 10 pounds loss. I did quite well in January - I lost 14 pounds in a month. So I'm going to say 25th March is my target for 139.


25th March 2012. 139.